Pretending...

Seems like an eternity...
But was just four hours ago,
I always pretend as I see you leaving,
it doesn't hurt when you go...

I pretend it's all right
When really it's all wrong.
I pretend I look forward and move on
But then I find myself asking,

"Now what?.."
"Now what will I do?.."
"Now what will i do without you?.."

I pretend my soul doesn't cry,
Isn't shattering as time goes by.
I pretend I'm strong when the strength in me is you.
Pretend you're not a part of me
And I don't love you more than anything
'Cause you are, and I really do...

I pretend you're not what I’m lacking,
You're not my reason for everything,
Pretend it goes by a moment
I don't find myself asking,

"Now what?..
"Now what will I do till I see you again?.."
"And how long will it be till then?...

I pretend I don't feel this pain…
Not having you with me, it hurts so much
And all this strength I feign
Somedays it crashes down on me.
'Cause it's too much.

And as I fall, I pretend I don't feel this strain,
all this distance I'm enduring,
Keep feeling this pain,
Having to go on and keep thinking,

"Now when?.."
"When will I see you again?.."